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ए जीवनको दु:ख!

मरको छैन सत्यप्रति मेरो विश्वास,

मरेको छैन न्यायप्रति मेरो आस्था

सबैको शान्ति र,

सबैको सुखको लागि,


नालाकाङकर महालङगुर

अनी कन्चनजङ्गाका हिमशिखाहरुमा

फुटेको उज्यालो हुँ म

मलाई असह्य छ, बन्दुक भुकेको पिडा।

ए जीवनको दु:ख!

नेपालका कयौँ अँध्यारा कन्दराहरुमा

उदाएको उज्यालो ज्योती हूँ म

शिक्षाको उज्यालो बिहानी हुँ म

को खोस्न आउँछ मेरो मुस्कान?

को छिन्न आउँछ मेरो सिर्जना?

को लुट्न आउँछ मेरो अस्मिता


मेरो प्रभात?

ए जीवनको दु:ख!

शान्ति र अहिंसाका भोका छन,

मेरा डाँफे मुनाल र परेवा

कोइली र न्याउलीका स्वरहरु


बुद्धका खण्डित मूर्ति र

तिनका उपदेशहरु


न्याका भोका छन्,

नेपालका असंख्य गाऊँ र बस्तिहरु

अनि त्यसका,

लाखौँ पिडित, उत्पिडित जनता


मलाई असह्य छ, बन्दुक भुकेको पिडा।

ए जीवनको दु:ख,

मरेको छैन जन्मभूमि प्रति मेरो गित,

मरेको छैन स्वतन्त्रता प्रति मेरो प्रित

फेरि बुद्ध र जयपृथ्वीको खोजिमा


नालाकाङकर महालङगुर

अनी कन्चनजङ्गाका हिमशिखाहरुमा

प्रज्वलित उज्यालो हुँ म

मलाई असह्य छ बन्दुक भुकेको पिडा

मलाई असह्य छ अकालमा मरेको च्याङवाको पिडा

ए जीवनको दु:ख,

शान्ति र करुणाका भोका छन्

मेरा बुद्धका खण्डित मूर्ति

अनि सेता परेवाहरु

र प्रेमका भोका छन्

मेरा इच्छा, आकंक्षा र प्रीतका नग्माहरु


वर्षौ देखिन मलाइ असह्य छ

मलाई असह्य छ बन्दुक भुकेको पिडा

मलाई असह्य छ अकालमा मरेको च्याङवाको पिडा

An old poem revisited.


MR. Stephen colbert-the dumbass joker, oh! yeah people call you a comedian don’t they? But I will like to call you a Joker, a comedian who makes his acts just to please viewers with insufficient knowledge and is unbearable to the legitimate/wise public. You are a Joker… and hey you also wrote some books(that I didn’t hear of). So, since sometime back you made fun of our country, one of our caste, our flag, and a living goddess that not only Nepalese but also Hindus and Buddhists believes in. Yes, since you made fun about kumari based on some inconclusive and misleading information you had I thought may be I can help you with some of the things I know about Kumari.


                            Comparing Kumari with Hana_Montana? Don’t Americans have respect to other religion?

But first things first… Do you Know what religious tolerance is? Oh! How could you know you only know about Jesus, or the Musa, or the amount of Hatred you have for Muslims since one ‘maroon’ named laden crashed planes in your building. You are the guys who decides to burn Quran, a holy book of more than a quarter of the world. You are the ones who burned all the books that described about Mary Magdalene, the original heir of jesus. You guys are the one who sucked the blood of Africans just because you thought you guys were superior because of colour. FYI, Hitler also thought he was superior and he certainly descended from the aryan clan. Don’t worry we are not here to describe who is superior.


     A ten-year old girl who is part of both Buddhist and Hindu tradition from time even before America was sovereign

Not only does Nepal have many gods, goddess, deities, Bodhisattvas (near Buddhas), avatars and manifestations, which are worshipped and revered as statues, images, paintings and symbols, but it also has a real living goddess. The Kumari Devi is a young girl who lives in the building known as the Kumari Ghar, right beside Kathmandu’s Durbar Square. From time immemorial the practice of worshipping an ordinary pre-pubescent girl as a source of supreme power has been an integral part of both Hinduism and Buddhism, a tradition which continues even to this day virtually in every household. They call this girl Kumari Devi and worship her on all the religious occasions. The Kumari Ghar was built By Mahendra Malla in 1549 AD (yes, more than a century before your country got sovereignty). The kumari Now resides in Kumari Ghar built by King Jaya Prakash Malla in 1757. Kumari generally waves the devotees from Kasthamandava a 12th century building believed to be made from a single tree.

Kumari is believed to be the reincarnation of Taleju, a goddess believed to be Buddhist by birth, and represents the ancient Hindu deity of Nepal. Kumari is not just the symbol of power or goddess, she is the symbol of religious tolerance we have in our small yet so big country.There is an ancient story based on mythology. The Malla Kings of the Valley in ancient times had wide knowledge of practising Tantricism. They used to play dice and other games with the goddess Taleju with their tantric powers. King Jaya Prakash Malla, the last Malla ruler of Kathmandu used to play dice with Goddess Taleju. He became fascinated by the charming beauty of the goddess. He lost control and caught her by the hands. The goddess perceived his erotic thoughts and was enraged by his immoral attitude, she immediately vanished from the king’s sight. That night the king again saw Goddess Taleju in his dream. In his dream she strictly warned him that he shall no longer be blessed by her. His dynasty was going to end. The king would only be able to get darshan in the new form of pre-menstrual girl belonging to the Shakya caste in whom the goddess herself is said to dwell as goddess Kumari. Since then, the Kumari is worshipped as the living virgin goddess. The Kumari bahal was built in 1767 during the reign of King Jaya Prakash Malla. He also instituted the festival of drawing the chariot of Kumari, the living goddess followed by other two living gods- Ganesh and Bhairav. It may amaze you that The Kings of Nepal would be considered kings only if the Kumari gave them blessings. Yes, the kings had to bow before the three year old girl which you made fun about.

The selection of the Living Goddess is a highly elaborate tantric ritual. Upon passing the preliminary test, this is merely concerned with their 32 attributes of perfection, including the colour of her eyes, the shape of her teeth and the sound of her voice. Her horoscope must also be appropriate. The 4 to 7 year poor girls from the Sakya community are made to confront a goddess in the darkened room. The sight of the Buffalo heads scattered around, the demon- like masked dancers, the terrifying noises theyencounter scare some of these innocent babies. The real goddess is unlikely to be frightened, so the one who is calm and collected throughout the tests is the only girl who is entitled to sit on the pedestal for worship as the Living Goddess. Then as a final test similar to that of the Dalai Lama, the Kumari then chooses items of clothing and decoration worn by her predecessor. (Not just the three characters you said dumbass, know something before commenting/mocking others.) In fact if you want to know these are the qualities the Kumaris must possess:

1) Feet well proportioned.2) Spiralling lines on the soles of the feet. 3) Nails well proportioned. 4) Long and well formed toes. 5) Feet and hands like those of a duck (with netlike lines). 6) Feet and hands soft and firm. 7) The body broad at the shoulders and narrow at the waist. 8) Thighs like those of a deer. 9) Small and well recessed sexual organs. 10) Chest like a lion. 11) Well-spread shoulders. 12) Long arms. 13) Pure body.14) Neck like a conch shell. 15) Cheeks like lion. 16) Forty teeth. 17) Teeth white and nicely shaped. 18) No gaps between teeth. 19) Tongue small and sensitive. 20) Tongue moist. 21) Voice clear and soft like a duck’s. 22) Eyes blue/black. 23) Eyelashes like those of a cow. 24) A beautiful complexion with white luster. 25) A gold-coloured complexion. 26) Skinpores small and not too open. 27) Hair-whorls stiff and turning to the right. 28) Hair black. 29) Forehead large and well-proportioned. 30) Head round with cone-shaped top. 31) Body shaped like a banyan tree. 32) Robust body.

We are not Afghanistan or Iraq, We don’t have oil that might interest you. We are a small country with people who are well aware of limitations they have. we may depend upon the millions foreign-bucks that we get in donations or may be America is a sacred place that all of Nepalese cherish to go to, but still we cant bear what some idiot maroon dumbass joket like you says about our culture so old, infact older than the America itself. And Moreover if you found ‘Shakya’ funny what about the surnames like ‘Dick’ you guys have? And on the comments you made about our flag, go check the google, it’s the oldest flag of the world that has existed since vedic period as a symbol of Hinduism.

Colbert….. you have no rights to say such things about our country-Kumari-Flag….. and come apologize Mr. Stephen Colbert!

Here is a link if you haven’t seen what he said.—nepalese-pre-teen-goddesses

Freedom of speech doesnt means one has license to Play/mock with otherculture,nation,religion,pride,etc shameleslly in a tv show!!he sud appologize for this!!!i think colbert isunaware of the fact about DANISH CARTOONISTS who once cartoonize prophet muhammad andprobably is regretting as his life mistake who often is welcomed with many death threats andattack..,,dont play with gorkhali’s pride else ur pride will be shattered!!!!.its our culture dat makes usunique in this universe!!!!l we waste million quintals of rice(chamal) in dashain as tika and travelmillion miles just to get blessings from elders,,fasting by women for their families,,,worshipingmetal,money,cow,trees,flowers,rocks ,etc…it is just because we love and respect each and everyliving/nonliving creature of this unvierse…but one has no rights to play and mock ourpride,culture,nationality,religion, shamelessly in a tv show..we respect our visitors as god but if theymock with our pride,nationality,culture,religion etc we cant tolerate it…(Kriss)

Who the hell is this guy to comment with such abrassive language to the culture that is older than the America itself. Being an american doesn’t mean they can say whatever the hell they want. Do they think that being one of the poorest country of the world mean they can make fun about our culture that we cherish so much. Making fun of other’s culture is no part of a civilized person. What if we question about the rights of mary or how she was toppeled or all the injustices that christianity did against anyone who opposed it, prominently the scientists and what about the huge sum of money you guys spend to convert religion? Didn’t you think it was totally.inappropriate to compare Kumari, a goddess of about a billion people, to Hana Montena, and made fun of whole belief with the aid of one news that itself is inappropriate and misleading. Don’t make hasty conclusions based on no/lil knowledge.

What you said Mr. colbert is certainly over the limits. You may be one of the great showman, a great comedian but that gives you no right to say anything you want about our culture. Do you think shakya is funny then how about Dick? Even your former president has it. Kumari is a common goddess of Both Hindus and Buddhists, a symbol of religious tolerance and proof that how rich our culture is. You said you had the three qualities of Kumari…. let me ask you one thing, Do you even know what religious tolerance is? Yes you know the meaning, I am not that dumb, but what about the practical meaning. Don’t forget that you live in the country where just because a ‘psychopath’ Muslim laden and Al-Qaeda dropped planes in you buildings made you hate Isn’t it true?

We agree we are poor, we live in the foreign bucks that your country or other rich nations donates us. but that doesn’t makes you say about us. We may be the porters, but the porters are the one who takes you to the top of the Everest. And what the hell about the Flag? It’s the sign of how unique we are from rest of the world. It’s the flag Hindus all over the world cherish. It’s the flag that has been in use since the Vedic era. And you say we don’t know about rectangular flag?  what do you guys about Nepal? Do you still think that Nepali people are the one that Indiana Jones showed… the ones that lived in the jungle and drank liquor more than water? May be you guys should be wise enough to know that most of the toppers or A-grades of your universities are Nepalese.

The comment that offended the most was how you described America is the holiest land of all. It’s a country that doesn’t have a culture of its own, and its also a country which treats the aboriginal people as the second class citizen. And you say you live in the holiest land of all. oh! I forgot it’s a comedy show and you are the joker of it…. How Hilarious.

Colbert…. You definitely should apologize and watch you tongue from next time about what you say

I have watched literally dozens of movies based on the same story(0r you can say like that) that Erich Segal wrote in his best seller “Love Story“. Well… at least I hear so. I never got chance to watch the original movie but just a day ago i read the original book, the paperback edition, and not the e-book(i loathe reading e-books). I thought the book was like the sentimental tragedies of the bollywood or kollywood or hollywood that i have seen many a times. But when i started reading the book i was damned. The 120 pages long small book abstained me even to grab a drink or use the toilet… its a damn page turner if you haven’t read it.

This short book made me laugh a many times like this conversation did:

'What the hell makes you so smart?' I asked.
'I wouldn't go for coffee with you,' she answered.
'Listen - I wouldn't ask you.'
'That,' she replied, 'is what makes you stupid.'

And I was in tears when i finished reading the book. The first lines of the book will always haunts me for no reason

"What can you say about a twenty-five-year-old girl who died? 
That she was beautiful and brilliant. That she loved Mozart and Bach. The Beatles. And me."

That first line summarizes this phenomenal bestseller and enduring classic. And there is no lines memorable than this,

"Love means never having to say you are sorry"

And here is one review of the plot of novel i have collected over the internet,

“Oliver Barrett first met Jennifer Cavilleri in Radcliffe library where she was studying. Jennifer was unimpressed with neither his intelligence nor his wealth and she thought that he was a loser. Despite her low opinion of him, he couldn’t help invite her to dates and his hockey games. That started their relationship. It wasn’t long before Oliver told her that he loves her although Jennifer didn’t believe him, they were still happy together. She provided him a different perspective to his wealthy life. He grew up in a severely strict house where reputation needed to be uphold and affections were not entertained. With Jennifer, Oliver for the first time felt real love. When Jennifer suddenly started talking about going their separate ways after graduation, Oliver panicked. He was not ready to end their relationship and so he proposed to Jennifer. They went to his parents to announce the news of their marriage but his parents were disapproving of Jennifer because she had no reputable lineage and was poor. Oliver was angry with his parents and he disowned himself. He proceeded to marry Jennifer while finishing his law degree. It was tough without his unlimited access to money. They scrounged every day, working part-time juggling both school and work just to make ends meet. But after graduation, he got great offers from law firms and that made their lives easier. It wasn’t long before they planned on having a baby. But after many futile attempts, they sought medical expertise. It turned out that Jennifer was sterile. But the worse news was that she was dying of leukemia. Oliver couldn’t believe it and he was in so much grief. Furthermore, he needed to tell his wife of her disease. He decided not to tell Jennifer and tried to act normal. He forsook his job in favor of spending more time with her. But Jennifer found out eventually and they couldn’t do anything but share the grief together. Only a month passed when Jennifer became very ill and they knew that her time was almost up.”
Katrina Lo, Resident Scholar
From the Publisher This is the wonderful, tumultuous, heartfelt story of Oliver Barrett IV and Jenny Cavilleri–the story of a rich Harvard jock and a wisecracking Radcliffe music major who have nothing in common but love . . . and everything else to share but time. Funny and flip, sad and poignant, Erich Segal’s  magnificent novel will grab you, hold you, and stay with you forever.You, like more than twenty million others, will fall in love with Love Story.
 “Not just a story–Love Story is an experience. The reader who responds to this little book will
feel less like a reader than an unwritten Segal character, living it all out from the inside…
In this ‘love story’ you are not just an observer.”–Christian Science Monitor.

 “Funny, touching and infused with wonder, as all love stories should be.”–San Francisco Examiner

Oh! did i make you feel ”too bad not to read the book” you can do it now from here…

click the link down and download the ebook in pdf….. cheers!

 Erich Segal – Love Story

There were the days when I used to have three hours just to write A for Apple, B for Ball and bla bla bla and space to draw some random figures in the answer papers. I had to do nothing but fight with Bahini and some friends all round the day and fight with mum at the end of the day for the food I liked or I detested. At that time when some one asked me what I wanted to be, I would childishly answer,”Mo ta Thulo Vayela Doktol banne (I will be Doctor when I grow old)” with smile in the face. The days would start with chiya from Buwa’s (Grandfather) cup of tea and ended with Buwa’s stories. I got everything I wanted there… I was the king of my world then.

When TV came in that world and the thirteen minutes of  ‘The Thriller’ came as the most exciting thing of my world I wanted to be like Michael Jackson. Folks used to tell me the story of Michael… how a Negro/Habsi became the American and all. I was during my primary school days, when I used to know it all without reading and finish all my homeworks in the school so that I would have nothing left but watch TV. As I grew older my Baba(DAD) made me addicted to books. He used to bring one book or other every time he went somewhere and the book ranged from fairytales to child magazine and simple-informatic books. All those helped me a lot to change from ‘I know it all’ to ‘Oh! I have so many things to learn’. Grades started to rise, I started to save money from Tiffin to buy Harry porter books(first one when I was at 8), started writing poems, started excelling at quizes and then all encouraged me to be an engineer when I passed my class ten coz I was so very good at Maths and Science. But somehow now I ended up studying Biology here.

Those were the good old Pre-internet days or little internet days, when I wouldn’t take more than a day or two to finish a good book. But as my count of springs increased, with some responsibility everything has changed. The free times, which are so very less anyways, that I used to spend with books is now overtaken by Internet,movies and more precisely social network. While writing this, I have now two books pending to be finished for I don’t know how many weeks sandwiched somewhere between my course of studies, my time wasted in Internet or watching movies or the time I spend trying to gather some sleep. I am not busy by any means but not free to do “good” things too.

In the days of my Highschool when wikipedia was the next best thing I knew, although google was always there as the GODFATHER of all Search Engines but I always entered my queries in wikipedia rather than google itself, and it had all the answers wanted, it was my tutor of the times. In the world where the famous words of the last milenium,”I don’t know” is buried in the deepest realms, and everytime you dare to say so, one or another will pop up and say, ”LMGTFY” (Honestly  speaking I didn’t know what that meant untill one of my friend who happens to be a techie said that LMGTFY=Let me google that for you, and lol’ed me for being a moroon). Yes I suck at these things and even more I don’t like being part of this world. I belong to those good old preinternet days where reading books and hanging around with friends without any cause was the next best thing. I don’t like being poked, DMed or foursquared or chat-msgd (which I seldom reply) rather being called or taken out of home without any notice.

And what about other things? for example the kids (and I too) nowadays saves their tiffin so that they can buy a good DVD or two, or rather have o pizza rather than buying books. We spend a hell lot of time infront of TV or Internet or movies (provided the electricity is there). How many of will you go to theatre to watch Harry porter-the movie rather than reading Harry porter-the book? oh! wait I can count your numbers. and there so many words the kids know that I didn’t knew back then like blown away(isnt it rocketed?), suck(isnt it Chusnu in Nepali), ROFL,LMAO,FYI, and the f-word,the c-word and other slangs and bla bla bla.


When someone, I forgot who? but probably Bob Dyalan (and in the world where google has banned us from not knowing I didn’t waste time searching for it) said, “Don’t grow up, getting older is a trap”, he said it right. During my first year as a university student the first thing I knew was wikipedia isn’t my tutor anymore. My teacher famously said science is more complex than what wikipedia is, I didn’t have doubts. And not a little when Everytime I prepare for exams of my beloved subject staying up till 3 in the morning and then again waking up at 7 and still somehow sulk at it despite knowing all the answers. The world is a sophisticated high entropy(not going per thermodynamics) where every.little.thing.i.know isnt enough anymore. Wikipedia is replaced by Pubmed, medline and other sophisticated servers,the articles we have to use as reference to write any assignment most compulsorily be some published journals, and you need to be smart while answering your papers. Weren’t those old A for Apple days better by all means?


(note: the post was written as I again failed to do better in Shakin sir’s exam, in the subject I like most among other courses of mine, despite knowing all the answers and having enough time.. some thing never changes)